My Happy Day!!!!!!!!

just got home half an hour ago.haha!guess who i went out with today?heez..my bestie!!!my best friend!!Joanna!!deary i miss you so much!do you know how happy i am when i see you!!Geck wah is also with us and also her fren PeiYun if im not wrong.PeiYun is such a sweet girl.we had pizzahut for lunch cum dinner.and off we go to heeren to do wad?haha those who know me super well..guess you've know what i'll be doing there!!hahah!!!the NEOPRINT MACHINES!!!and yesh..we took neoprints and not once but thrice.haha!well..after this outing,don't know when will we be able to meet up again.i miss you girls like mad!haha!after walking talking around town,Geck Wah have to go off as she need to attend to something.and PeiYun gotta go for work.and its jo and me haha!and we chatted and chatted.i miss chatting with you deary.went to our old place again.its at taka.haha!both shared Pearl Milk tea with DOUBLE pearl hahaha!and talk to jo loadsa stuff.-girl,i do hope you remember all that i've said,coz it will help you!-most importantly,be happy and have a big heart to...you know lah~haha!-all i want you to know is,whenever you need someone to talk to,i am here.and when you are going to that place which we talked about in the bus,please inform me.okie..overall i just miss you lah!thank God you sms me and make be wake up,if not we will not be out today.seriously girl i miss you so much!haha!i know you gotta be home for dinner ard 5+6pm but stop you,so sorry about it to make u stay till 10++pm!im so sorry...next time we plan earlier okie.so we can "play" longer!hahaha!

oh yes,speak about Geck Wah,goodness!!!she've changed!!thank God for her big change!haha!Geck became more girl now than she used to be and have a better character now,her thinking,she grew!!!she became mature le!i love talking to you girl.guess few years ago,i've wasted the time for not communicating more.but i will..from now on,lets go out again soon!!!

i went Tangs today,and bought a tube top from i don't know the name..having 20% off so i buy haha!so long nv buy anything.so today i bought something haha!but!!!!!!that top i bought is not the colour i wanted!!!they have got no pink top!!oh..yes pink top is available.but not the size i wanted!!!!only X,XS,L,XL..don't have M!!!so nv buy pink but dark brown.chocolate colour.aRGHHHHHHhHHh!!!!but nvm..im into dark colour these days.haha!don't you say its ugly because i love it ahahaha!

hmm.wad else..oh yes..the neoprints..i'll upload soon..

about my cute little kittens..man!!i think they are born to be hungry CATS!forever meow-ing at me NON-STOP.and will sit at the fridge and wait to be served!and i so good to them..one of them scratch me!!!ARGGHHH..hao ren nan dang!haha..and heres the proof~


see!!wad agressive bad kittens i've got!!hahha no lah..im just joking...kittens are gentle animals.i love them loads!haha

well..overall,i've enjoyed my day today!hahha!

Artist:Joy Enriquez
Song Title:How Can I Not Love You

cannot touch, cannot hold, cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss, cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

Chorus:
How can i not love you
What do i tell my heart
When do i not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do i not miss you when you are gone

Cannot dream, cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, must not say
What we've known all along

Chorus:
How can i not love you
What do i tell my heart
When do i not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do i not miss you when you are gone

How can i not love you

Bridge:
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we've known all along

Chorus:
How can i not love you
What do i tell my heart
When do i not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories

How do i not miss you when you are gone
How can i not love you
When you are gone

was at home the entire day haha!jan was here since last night.we cleaned the house today..haaz..today..my kittens not guai...keep da bian-ing everywhere..den jan have to clean it..sorry wor..jan let u do all that cleaning..hahaz..

well..yesterday..went cg..man...so long never see shar..actually just 9days.but i feel its a long long time lehz..ahaaz..shar went taiwan for HT-Harvest Times-..came back on friday night..and yesterday heard stories of the hotel she was staying in.hahaz.it really scared me.hahaz.something supernatural lahz..but well..its all in taiwan not singapore..haa..

okie..after cg..was thinking to go home haha..den peishan and me decided to go and catch a movie.and we watched Monster in law..MaN!that movie is a must watch one!i think its very nice..so nice...so funny..haaahaha i was laughing tru out the entire movie haha!and just for that movie..it took peishan and me almost an hour to get the tickets..due to our slow walk!hahahah!and climbing of stairs haha!!!its a very nice show..i love that show haha!its either its been too long since i last watch movie or that movie is really nice..i feeel like watching it again..ahahz...

reached home about 2+ ytd i guess..and chatted with jan..jan so sorry tat i just pass u the hse keys and u go home urself..so sorryyyyy!!!but its nice having you ard!!!hahahz

should i go and take my allowance?i lazy to go lehz.far worz..hahha!

mel anniiiee....rem!!!house of wax hor!!hahahhaahha!!!!but not at YISHUN!!!hahahz

phEWWwwww~~~just finished bathing and so here i come blogging hahaz.got home from kranji camp after my NDO training..manz..the weather is so so so HOT!i was standing under the super hot sun for a long time manz..but well..managed to get some dance steps back in my head hahahz..

my plan for today was that i'll go kranji camp for training and then to aunts place and off i go for my cgm..but due to some personal matter..i've got no choice but to go home first..wad a day!so i'll go cgm frm aunts place..sighhz..was thinking if i can go earlier to her place and practice piano.haha..my piano skills not very good...i can only play afew simple songs..but im willing to learn more hahahz!i feel very tired today lehz..due to......sigh...so tired...i wan to rest lehz...sighz.

im hungry,im tired......

i suppose everyone is asleep now.haha.i cant sleep.sleepless nights these few days.argHh..i wonder whats on tv now~hahaz.was hesitating if i should blog now.since i've got nothing to do and i cant get into my dreamland,so here i come..

well.woke up at 1 plus plus pm today..den uncle called ask me go HDB.so i went with him..know about HDB all that lahz.all money money..pay this and that..cant believe it..when im older,i'll have to pay this and that..more responsibilities..whao..actually i find my uncle very wei da lehz.help out at so many things,legal issues family problem all that..and today i saw one letter he typed..waa..my this uncle hor..don't seems like very ang moh type of guy lehz.but the letter he typed..different de lehz...so not him..its so ang moh lehz.i mean..erm..don't seems like its him who do the typing haha!ren bu ke mao xiang lehz..hahaz..i was in the car and he is hungry..so we drop by PPC to buy Pappa Roti haha!he loves Pappa Roti..we eat and we hmmm nice..nice..haha!and we talked lahz.sigh..heard about some issue about grandma.i know he'll help grandma.i trust him.

im so broke.uncle keep chui-ing me to find a job.how can i find a job when im still studying.how to concentrate?how i can do two things in one time?i cant study and work.aunt says:you can find a job work on fri sat and sun wad..i said:i got my comittments..she said:like wad?i said:church and cgm..u know wad she say:church go one time can liao..u go church,go and go..money come from where?u go out and work at least you can get wad u wan.and ur allowance..your dad have not send the money..he is having problem over taiwan also.if your church timing isnt good..transfer to my church...my church got morning svc..after church u can go and work already wad..sigh..why cant somebody just stand in and think about my situation?my allowance is for my 3 meals for 7 days.but..i've also gotta save for my hp bills.im paying for my own bills okie.i don't even go shopping which i seriously love to shop like other girls.i love to go to movies where some people goes like most of the time.i love to eat at good places..but i cant..i seldom go out already..i always say i want this i want that,in the end..i just say only..it never happen..but thank God,sometimes i do have the money to play ahahhaaa!!!i don't understand why uncle say im spending..wad i am spending on?i don't understand..most of the time i spend on food.coz the allowance is only for meals.im so jealous when other girls gets to wear nice fashionable clothings while i always wears the same old thing.i feel so paisehh about wearing the same...but i've no choice.dad not in singapore,he got another family out there,nv talk to me for such long time.have a baby sister,babys de hua fei is alot..dad is the only man that is paying for everything in his taiwan and singapore family..i wonder if he will break down...i wonder if he is tired..sometimes its so hurting to hear -if you wan the love i cant give im sorry-from dad.sigh...sad bo..sad bo?..when he is online i'll HI FATHER..he'll reply..busy.8181-bye bye..likedat worz..sad bo sad bo?den i'll just take one deep deep breathe and reply:okie take care of yourself..8181.likdat worz..sigh..the love i want,i cant get it..the life i want its not meant for me.felt so sad..sigh...everythings change..im like a loner now..no dad no bro no grandma..only me myself and i.many people love to have their very own hse.me too..but i prefer a house filled with love..family..yi jia ren..but my hse..only me..and uncle..but we seldom talk.i felt so left out..i felt so terrible...i hate to use this word hate.but i really hate this interesting life..its interesting in a way tat theres fun-laughter all that..but sometime i can be weak..for awhile..let me be a little weaker..im tired...very tired..tired of this life...a life without the most impt love i yearned for 18years.and that is why kittens came in..i cant wait for the nov holidays..so i can work for half a year..and earn like mad..God please helpppp meee...Strength is all i need now.

okie..that me mai yuan-ing...but still life have to carry on..im still me..still striving hard in life..to be a better person....

finally my EXAMS are OVER!!!!!yeaHHHHH!!cant wait to finish my last paper today.was dying to clear it.hahaz.well..studied like mad..going crazy while studying..wasnt able to handle the stress..coz half of the time im worrying about how difficult the paper will be and am i able to get the notes into my brain..and thoughts adding and adding..hhaha..i have to force myself to sit and stop thinking...and keep drinking water..non stop can...im turning crazy yesterday hahah!but now..im free from it!the paper was easier den i thought..i thought it will be so difficult..coz the assignments i did in sch,i don't really know how to do quite a number of sums..and i left them out..but this afternoon..haha..no question left out..all answered..

i have KITTENS!!!cute little KITTENSS!!they are so cute...the meow so gentle..they come to me..i felt so as ease..eventhough i prefer dogs..but well..be contented..haha..cats aren't that bad also haha..named one as tigger-named by my da sao-janice..and milky-think is also named by my da sao.haha!janice is so nice..she bought food for the kittens..haha..while i only..clean the cat shit and feed them and play with them hahaz..man..their da bian veryyyyyy SMELLY de can...i smell till i BTH lehz hahahz.btw..these kittens are given to me by my little cousin..she had asthma attack again few days after taking care of the kittens...so she have no choice but to give them away..btw this 2 kittens not stray de ahaha!

here are the kittenssss

this is milky


this is tigger..hahaz


look at tigger stomach!!man so big!!btw..my kittens sleep after meal all the time..hahaz


milky again


closer look at milky..so cute hor hahaz..


the one looking at the camera is tigger..the behind one is milky hahaz...milky is the lazy one hahaz..


the both of them...hahahz

sigh..my that brother..so good call home..firstly i thought he called to ask how am i..buttttttt....its not...is to ask how are the kittens..got eat got clean their shit got this got that lehz..sad bo..sigh..my brother lehz..wo bu ru KITTEN Lehz..haha..nvm!i dun care him..hahah!

well.just got home from my da gu's office.haha.went over to her house and PPC to stay with my grandma.can see my grandma misses me haha.i miss her too ahaha!saw her..she hold on to my hand and don't wanna let go..hahaz.and we talked yesterday night.stay by her side till..erm..2am.ahaha!she saw me..she hug me hahah!not once worz.haha..well..i wish i can hug her forever...she is getting weaker..sigh..she wanted to go to the washroom and she took a long time to get up from her bed..and when she got up..she fall back.sigh..but im glad she is happier than she was before.at least she is with someone she is close to.and ...im at ease haha.

guess wad i wore to aunt's office?haha!i wore my sec sch short short de pe short.haha and one t-shirt.slack hor..haha!im in the slack mood haha!but abit weird..coz im in the shopping center..aunt actually wanted me to go over to some other travel agency to take ticket..man..ask me?look at how slack i am..hmm..had a small but long talk with my xiao aunt.know alot of her life..find that she is a VERY strong lady..really..she is a faithful lady..very helpful.tel me..who will help their mama to bathe?wash away the urine?and be by her mama side 24/7?well..my aunt can!isnt she great?i don't even dare to bathe my grandma..well..jia jia wadever nan nian de jin lah!eventhough my family seems like its in a big mess..erm dun seems..it is!..but i still thank God that i still have a family..and my beloved most important grandma...i seriously miss her a lot lohz..i miss her till i want to hug her and jus sit there and dun move..can u imagine..my grandma..and we sitting down at hawker center..and my hands are not on my side..is on my grandma's lap and she is holding on to my hands..felt so LOVED!ahaha!this is the love i want!hahaz!a love that is hard to say but a love that can be felt..

okie.thats about my grandma and i.well.yesterday..had my Effective Communication exam in school..and..im late for 7 mins..sigh...i run from the bus stop till the hall..till i wanna vomit..lack of oxygen..cant breathe..and i finish the paper in jus one hour and plus plus mins..the paper..okie lohz..normal..seems like assignment..the assignment i normally do in school hahaz..so not very very stress lahz..hai hao..but this tueday..i will faint...its the most difficult and to me..i feel very impt lahz.its my Office Organisation paper..can someone pray for me....hope i get a A for this paper!i must get the goal i want!

after my EFC exam..went to take bus to tampines to meet mike and xin-er and janice..get on the bus 31..denn...i tell u..i wanted to sit..and i saw one empty space..so i went over..and one boy...my school de..went and sit while he saw my fren and me..know wad he say..eh..sorry ya..and there he sit down..whao!!this is the first time a guy just saying sorry and not letting a lady have the seat..whao..and i cough loudly..but actually not purposely de..but since he think i purposely..let it be..and i continue standing..den he tel his fren..one girl..whaa..that girl ah lian?please lahz..act nia..who cares if u ah lian or whatever..that girl stare at me..since someone is looking at me..i look back at her lohz..den went to continue talking to my fren.hahaz.sigh..we are living is this corrupted world..

holidays are coming..looking for job..sms this aunt of mine..but she ignore me..fine lohz..dun work for you..next time need help don't ask me...don't say i never help u,i wanted to but u dun give me a chance.sigh.long story..anyway..my family is S11 people..S11 equals to $ minded..say liao gek sim only..sigh..all i can say is..don't act as if you are a kind soul when you are so not one.you'll just make me wanna puke.yuck.fake people with fake heart.eeeeeee yeeerrrrr...er xin si le~dun be mistaken.i don't hate u.

anyway i enjoyed my week!

i want to watch House of Wax..ARghh..someone?please?watch with me?after tue?can?someone?

okie..gonna prepare myself for cg.today cgm got special leader and special guitarist.i wonder who is the special people..hahaz..

-gone-

-Boring-

here i am again~~blogging again~~okie..stayed at home today.gonna practice my typing skills..for tomorrow's exam.hope i'll do very well for it..

today woke up at 1+pm..brother went to work.did not have the chance to see him before he book in.coz i was sleeping..sigh..did not get to see janice also..she is also working..so the both of them..left the house while i was still sleeping..was soo tired..slept at 5+am..couldnt get to my dreamland..

someone keep crossing my mind these days..i felt so bothered..aRGhh..get out of my mind..

am i stress?i feel pressured...like im having burdens..is it coz of my exams?i think so...im so afraid of not doing well to achieve the goal i want..i have to get to that goal i have to accomplish it..if i don't..that is it..that is it...

am listening to this song..i can see The Glory of The Lord...falling from heaven~~........drawing me closer into eternity....i need strength..wisdom..and the spirit of rejection..get away from me..

sometimes i do feel lonely.am i a loner?hmmz..i dun think so..haaha.aRgh....sighh..what should i do now..noone is at home with me...cant believe it..im facing the monitor screen everyday..my fren,my computer.

tv shows are so boring..at this time..channel 5 also dun have any interesting show..after the deep blue sea..den news..den nth liao..

i miss my grandma..

i miss my dad.nv even call me..sighh..

Imagine Me Without You

by:Jaci Velasquez

As long as stars shine down from heaven

And the rivers run into the sea

Til the end of time forever

You're the only love I'll need

In my life You're all that matters

In my eyes the only truth I see

When my hopes and dreams have shattered

You're the one that's there for me

When I found You I was blessed

And I will never leave You, I need You

Chorus:

Imagine me without You

I'd be lost and so confused

I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid

Without You there to see me through

Imagine me without You

Lord, You know it's just impossible

Because of You, it's all brand new

My life is now worthwhile

I can't imagine me without You

When You caught me I was falling

You're love lifted me back on my feet

It was like You heard me calling

And You rush to set me free

When I found You I was blessed

And I will never leave You, I need You

Chorus

When I found You I was blessed

And I will never leave You, I need You oh

Chorus

I can't imagine me without You

UPS DOWNS LEFT RIGHT!!!!!

guess why my title is ups downs left right?hahaz.actually its nothing.well.i just almost lose my life on Thursday..

the story goes like this..as usual,my spectacle will always be hanging on my landyard..and i simply just being lazy to put my beloved spectacle into the box.i rather it hanging on my landyard.and sadly..so sadly..sighhz..while i was crossing the road..i dropped my spectacle as i was RUNNING across e road..its was kinda like a busy road lahz..my PINK spectacle landed up in the middle of the busy road!!aRGHh..and i ran halfway i noticed i drop something..i turned back to check..and sadly i saw my beloved pinky spec..it landed there helplessly..sigh..i went to take it..my hand was reaching out to it..almost kneeling down..and thanks to Nelson for telling me theres car..if not..u might have to visit me in the hospital..and coz of that car that is coming FAST towards me..i ran away..leaving my BELOVED spectacle there HELPLESSLY!!sobxxx..and i was jumping and pointing and my spec..while i see my spectacle GOT RAN DOWN BY A STUPID BLACK CAR!!!!and i heard that heartfelt painful CRACK sound!!!obviously from my PINKY spectacle!!!!and there goes my $155.00 spectacle!!!sigh!!!it had been with me for less than a year..only like half a year?sighzz...and i actually wanna risk my precious life for it..sigh..thank God im still alive..the scene was like TV show man..a gal wanna kneel down..and a black rushing car!!gosh!!thinking of it..it kinda scares me..sigh..i miss my spectacle..im having difficulties looking at things..sigh..no $$ to get new spec..sigh..don't even know how to tell my dad about this spec..sighhzz..exams coming..no spec..how to study in class??sigh...im so used to having spec while studying..aRgHh..

okie..thats about my spec that almost caused me my precious life..wonder why i've not been updating?hahaz.im not free lohz haha!attending seminar..Rev Phil Pringle!!weeeuuuuweekk!!Rev Phil is such a great preacher!!i love attending his seminar..Tuesday wednesday thursday Friday and Sat im attending church!!hahha!!i love it!!!weeeee!!!!i love it!!hahah..sunday cannot lehz..exam coming..need to be good girl..study!!!my typing skill..eventhough kinda a simple thing to do..but i want perfect..so i need to train liao!

that's it..i feel soooo fat these days..im eating too much i guess..too much junk food ahhaa!!i would rather eat junk food than the food people normally eat..ahha!am i weird..hahhaz..

notice that i've changed my bloggie song again..haha..thanks mike haha!its mix of Savage Garden de truely madly deeply..and Jay de..sorry i dunno wad title..haha!i think its nice..so i put loh..but im changing it soon haha!

i want to watch house of the wax lehz..noone watch with me..so ke lian hor me..haha!nvm!!wait till i get hold of the vcd..i watch myself!!

Rev Phil prayed for Uni JC Poly studentss...but he dunno about US...the ITE students..but nvm..i still feel God!!hahhaa!!this song:Thank You..for the chance to live again..=God i thank you!!!

Friday130505-almost couldn't catch the last train home..and thanks to MIKEE for making me feeling terrible..i was in the bus to boonlay station..my heart was like GOD GOD!!pls...pls..i cannot miss the last train...pls pls...let me get there before the last train leaves...and i received a phone call..from MIKE!!telling me its the last train...leaving liao...my heart pumps faster..i was like...having high blood pressure for like a few secs?and i was praying and praying..God!!my heart was screaming out to God for help!!haha!!and Thank God!!Praise the Lord!!!i got into the train...it was the second last train..so still not the last train..and btw..the last train which the MIKE was referring to was the train to sengkang!!not my place!!hahahha!!thanks MIKE hor??making me feeling so nan sou!!hahaha!!but still..Mike xie xie ni..i know u care for me!!haha!its just tt u hear wrongly...but still thanks!!!

got into the train...together with Mike,Yingwei,Peishan..and erm..theres 2 Peishans..one is Kang Peishan and other one is Lin or Lim Peishan!!i really dunooo how to call the both of the peishans when the both of them are around...one shan shan?one pei pei?and entertained again...look!!!


this is Kang Peishan hahah










smillllleeee~~~


wei wei!!!har low!!!weii weii!!!harloooowwwww!!!!


weiii!!you ren zai ma?hahahaha!




Jessie take 1


Take 2


Take 3


i edited it...i missing someone!!!heehee.....ni ai wo hai shi ta?hahahaha!!

okie..thats all for now..

-gone-[i miss my nai nai]

yesterday went to suntec with peishan..haha..and we ate swensen..yummmmiiee...hahaz..and we took pictures..loadss manz..haha..

before going suntec..we had cgm..cgm waas....erm..interesting ytd haha..prophesy..whao!!

okie..just look at the pictures...


this is swensen suntec..this is how it look from my point of view..


i had fish and chips and peishan have..teriyaki chicken pasta if im not wrong ahahz


im too full to finish the whole main course hahz


haha look at peishan...






mangoooooooo


i had mango ice-cream..whao..it really taste GREAT!!yummmiiie


wo hai young..take baby use de spoon hahahaha!!!!!


entertained myself while waiting for peishan to finish shao guaning the food!!!hahhha!!oppsss..








and we walked to esplanade..haha..this pic..erm..is...chuan yi hor hahahahahaz..


while walking to esplanade..i need to find a place to fan bian yi xia haha..passby millenium tunnel..hahaz


im a tourist from......errmm..TAIWAN!!i also want to take with the merlion hahahaz...


while i wanted to cross the road...turn back..peishan already like prepared to snap liao hahaz


time to go home....


nice hor..i like it..its at ms...

guess thats abt it...

-gone-

wuahahaha!!!i just finished exercising haha!!was dancing like CRAZY at home!!play music and just dance like a mad giRL hhaa!coz i dunno how to dance hahaha!!!!!!so i anyhow lohz!haha..and i manage to sweat!!!ahhahaha!!woohhohohohoh!!!know why i exercise..coz i feel that i gained weight!!wuhahah..and that means im fat le!!goodness..need to lose weight and eat less..hahaha!!need to watch my diet if not i will go haywire hahahaahaha!!and..erm i took pic after exercising hahahaha!!pardon me..haha..

okie..today..went school..wasn't that late hahahz..if im not wrong im in just in time haha!!but serena did not come to school today as she's not feeling well...hope she get well soon..heez..hmm..

nothing much lately..still the same old me..always got irritated by that "guy" in my class..but well..i'll just ignore that "guy"...today "he" laugh till very gu niang again..sigh..nvm..wo REN!!!wo KE YI de!!when aku tad tahan,is the time when he MAMPOS!ARgghhh...hahahhahha!!-grins-

okie..i've decided to go and exercise more..and tomorrow i'll play badminton..wuahaha..i will play till i fall!!haha..no lah..im jus abit screw loose now wuhahaha...im just happy today!!

happy day~~happy day~~

okies..the picturessss...









-gone-

stayed at home the entire day,did all the household chores.kinda enjoyed cleaning..i felt so so so satisfied with my clean house haha!just pray hard tat noone dirties it.haha..

well since im in a good mood today..i'll be a kind person..help my brother to wash and hang his army clothing..manz..when i was putting the clothes into the washing machine..i wanted to puke!know y?the smell of sweats!!goodness..it smelled terrible!!gosh!i was telling myself..man!i had never smelled something so terrible!haha.

i've change my bloggie song..haha..i find its cute so i decided to put it here..the title is Lonely..but..im not lonely!!hahah!!i just think its cute haha!!KeWLLL!hahaz

i m so lonelyyyyy...i m mr lonely...i have nobody of my own~~~wuahahahaha!!so cute right the person who sing that!hahaha

these days the television programme not very interesting hor..i've been home the entire day...but got nothing interesting on the tv!!aRGhhh...

im so into yoghurt!!!i love yoghurt!!!!yuMmmmmiiiEEee!!i love it!hahaz..

-gone- lonely~~~~hhaaz